I Know That Feeling!

Today I went to the theatre to see the first 3 episodes of Season 4 of The Chosen. It’s getting pretty intense as the story unfolds. John has been beheaded which lets us know Jesus is on his way to the cross. There is a side story (spoiler alert) about Thomas wanting to marry a character name “Rhema” who has left her family to follow Jesus. At the end of Episode 3 she is killed and Thomas pleads with Jesus to heal her. Jesus says it is not her time and that he loves Thomas and so does the Father. This occurs after Thomas and the disciples observe Jesus healing a blind man. When Thomas began weeping and wailing over his fiancé,’ I knew that feeling.

Although I cried quietly during that scene I wanted to break down because immediately, I thought about my mom passing and having all the same questions; wondering why my mom wasn’t healed. Why was I still following the Lord when He didn’t heal my mom? The last song I heard in my car before going into the theatre was “Jesus, Jesus” by Lisa Knowles. The words of the song kept ringing in my ear “I love Him, I love Him” as I drove home speechless and trying not to break down. That’s why I still follow Him and trust that He knows what’s best.”  Like Simon Peter said in John 6:68 “…Lord, to whom shall we go? thou hast the words of eternal life.” And as my aunt said, “We don’t know what my mom was praying for. The last words she said to me before going into cardiac arrest was “I want to go home.”  Looking back, I’m not sure if she was talking about her apartment or whether she wanted to be with the Lord. Bottomline is I can relate to Thomas in the movie because I know that feeling.

Written February 3, 2024